Dancing With My Soul

My Last First Kiss

2010-09-16T22:04:00.008+08:00

I‘m looking for my last first kiss

The one that caresses my heart,
The end to my searching
The beginning to my last start,

I want that feeling of melting
When we stare into each others eyes,
Making our lives complete
Just a touch bringing us to sighs,

Growing old together in true bliss
The love my grandparents had seen,
Sharing affection and emotion
With many smiles in between,

This is a dream I will keep
Until the day my heart finds this,
Then its a dream I will live
Searching for my last first kiss

Unhappily Ever After

2010-08-17T18:23:00.002+08:00

This cold frost-bitten heart was warm long ago

When love had blossomed in romance so young

Broken and banished to the darkness forever
With hope of being rescued by a princess true

Plagued was the heart of the princess he loved
Poisoned by the spirits that echoed in her ear
Blinded by an invisible lust that never existed
Created in her heart and mind by demons of hate

Long ago this prince was destined for happiness
In a kingdom he would reign with his pure heart
He fell victim to the evil brewing in his bed
When he turned a blind eye to the pain he felt

Her intentions were good but possessed by the bad
She could not see how much her prince had cared
His love was for her and she could not feel it
For her heart was numb and cursed with jealousy

The tale of a prince with a witch for a princess
A story where love did not rise and was defeated
Happy endings are only told in old fairy tales
But this book of stories tell of tales so true

The Colors Of Life

2010-07-19T19:50:00.002+08:00

Blue is the sadness dwelled inside,

A troubled soul that has been denied,

Of love and friendship in this world,

When hate and envy are unfurled.

Grey is the color of the falling rain,

Weeping with insanity that was never explained.

It's the mourning and the sadness formed inside,

Our worried selves, filled with pride.

Black is as deep as emotions can go,

Revealing everything it can possibly show.

This is when we all break down,

And in our emotions we seem to drown.

Yellow is the happiness we all possess,

That allows us laughter we can all express.

Through all our times of sadness and woe,

Yellow is the color we all need to know.

Colors are rather precisely unique,

All containing their own physique.

But in order to live every day of our lives,

We've got to make sure every color survives.

Harshness of Reality

2010-06-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

I was told that love can fill an ocean,

Sail a ship across the sea,

Fly a kite above the clouds,

Or solve life’s mysteries.

I was told that even words of love bring upon hope,

Mending broken fences every day,

Love is said to heal a tarnished heart,

Or drive the blues away.

I was told that love is the answer,

To questions we may have through time,

And that love is the only thing that matters,

That giving it up is deemed a crime.

I was told by the people around me,

As I journey through my life,

They never mentioned to me,

How love could cut me like a knife.

They forgot to mention that my heart could die,

That trust and faith would both be gone,

Or love could cause me to scream in pain,

When I was treated wrong.

They forgot to mention that love crushes,

Humans were agonized and broken,

Because they once believed in the lie,

When those three words were spoken.

The harshness of reality,

That love has brought to me,

Is bittersweet and locked away,

And needs no company.

When everything just bores the shit outta me, this comes out =)

2010-03-17T22:25:00.006+08:00

给一个最美最美的女人，
让我唯一想和她在一起的女人
给充分我的阳光，给我力量。
你把我的寂寞全赶走
是你让我的梦想全都实现，
没有你的爱，
我将会手足无措

你让我想当童话中的王子，
我要你成为我身边的公主，

我爱你多过你知道的
我要你带着我的爱到任何地方，
你会永远存在我心里，
没有任何事情能把我们分开，

你是我的世界，我生活的全部。
你是我的梦想，我活下去的力量，
我会爱你一辈子并珍惜你和你在一起的每一刻，
只要你答应永远在我身边

A Moment of Glory

2009-11-02T16:58:00.001+08:00

Pressure is placed on all shoulders,
Promising futures are often sought,
Beauty lies with unsuspecting beholders,
With lessons, that have yet been taught.

Prosperity awaits, those who endeavor,
The highest of highs and lowest of lows,
With inspiration and thoughts so clever,
As you embark on this journey you chose.

The memories of yesterday's corruption,
Haunt the ambition of tomorrow's dreams,
Beware of life's complicated interruption,
For nothing shall ever be what it seems.

Your word is your greatest possession,
As only you have the power to betray,
For some, manipulation becomes profession,
A modest influence is what they'll portray.

Remain faithful to yourself and desires,
Never jeopardize, for a moment of glory,
Hard work and heart is all life requires,
We're all writers of our own life story.

3 weeks...

2009-09-23T09:40:00.003+08:00

3 weeks.. was all it took. 3 weeks.. was all it lasted..

3 weeks back, it was pretty horrible.. 3 weeks later.. it is pretty amazing.

Life as it is, just can't seem to be any better.. However, life as it was, has left me drained of everything I held close to my heart. Now, as I see you, I can't help but think.

Thank god it's over.

Loving You

2009-09-03T03:05:00.003+08:00

You can be who you want to be,
But I won't be here when you decide.
I've waited so long for you,
But I can wait no more.
I was here but now I'm gone.

You were everything,
but now you're nothing.
No one else showed life to me than you.
What changed?
I never thought my love could change as fast,
But I wasn't prepared to leave you.

Now I've decided no one could wait as long ,
No one can be at your love;
But somehow I will find a way
To live as long as the word LOVE exists.

I know that we're not meant to love each other,
But somehow I loved you.
It's too late to change that,
But it's not too late to leave you.

Written for every person who decided to leave their partner

How I express myself..

2009-08-30T05:56:00.003+08:00

Lately, this is the only way where I can properly express myself. I can't do it in typing long essays.. I just hope, that these poems, might allow me to express myself in a way that will make me feel better...

It Was Good While It Lasted

Knowing I will face you
Knowing I will see your smile
Am I really in this dreadful mess?
Am I really able to go on, mile after mile?

Hurt's in my heart
And tears in my eyes
I miss the person you were
The person I met

As I try to be strong
Reality knocks on my door
As my attention's called
Lost in confusion, I am

But as the days go by, I find
I no longer want to be with you
With guidance from people,
I am slowly getting over you.

As I lay down on my bed,
As I just stop for a moment to rest,
The memories of you and me
Just run through me head

Maybe we were not meant to be
But even though it wasn't hard,
To say good-bye,
It was good while it lasted.

Letting You Know

You know that I am here,
Because you talk to me.
You don't know that I like you,
And if you did,
What would you do?

I sometimes feel like telling you,
How I truly feel,
If only you knew that I like you,
Would you give me a chance?

You are everything,
That I have ever asked for,
Beautiful eyes,
Nice, sweet and kind personality.
You are who you are to me,
And that is all that I want you to be.

I want to show you that I love you,
And I will never hurt you,
Because I will never want to lose you.
But I guess that will only remain a silent part of me,
The part that would have enough courage to tell you,
How I really feel.

So I hope this gets through to you,
Because this is the only way,
Just know that i like you,
And I will always be here for you,
Till the end.

I Bet You Never Knew

2009-08-27T16:44:00.001+08:00

Fixed and dazed in air
My mind wanders nowhere
I see our 'what could have been'
I begin to wonder where to begin

I don't know what to think
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I saw one girl in my life where now it's two
I've never felt so unprepared

My veins don't know which way to flow
The blood goes this way and that
To fulfill the body, or for the heart to breathe
Leaving both behind where they're at

So I'll stop and stare
Try to live my life
Although I see two
Like a splitting knife

Look In My Eyes

2009-08-26T12:34:00.001+08:00

It hurts me so to watch you go
But it tears me apart, when you don't take notice of me,
I'm sorry I can't be like other guys
Tall, handsome, and very funny
For once it wouldn't hurt to look in my eyes
Which burns with faith, care, and sensitivity
I try to be awesome and fun
But compared to my friends I'm always outdone

I know you deserve better and I'm not the very best
But if you would just look in my eyes, you'll see I care about you more than the rest
I try to turn from temptations, my eyes look away
Cause I see you, I'd rather be with you any day

I'm not perfect or best fit
But in my eyes you are
And that's all that matters to me
If you would look in my eyes, you can see me completely
But you only look at them
That's why I seem so unworthy

Your voice is my music
Your eyes are all I stare
So look back into mine
For you I so care

Hoping You Won't See

2009-08-25T04:48:00.001+08:00

I can't look you in the eyes I'm afraid that you will see.
The yearning I feel inside for what I know could never be.

I try to fight the feelings and what I long to say.
But every time it gets harder to just let you walk away.

If only you knew the truth hidden beneath the lies.
If only you could hear every time that my heart cries.

How can something that feels so right ever be so wrong.
When will the wanting stop it seems I've wanted you for so long.

God, but you're beautiful and oh how I yearn for just your touch.
Never could there ever be someone who longs for you so much.

But what I feel for you must stay hidden deep within.
For I could never fight for a love I know I cannot win.

So I'll silently keep wishing for what I know could never be.
And yearning for you but yet hoping you won't see.

Love at its best

2009-08-14T19:39:00.002+08:00

Love at its best,
Is a wonderful thing.

Love at its best,
Is a beautiful thing,

Love at its best,
Is an amazing thing,

Love at its best..
Is there such a thing? XD

Just a simple joke poem.. Doesn't mean anything..

4 Poems in a row

2009-08-10T17:55:00.006+08:00

My Love For You Is Real
Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly actions,
The way that you care,
And show such emotions.

The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.

The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.

The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

My Love

You are my angel,
My reason for it all,
You fill my life with hope,
And for you I stand tall,

I think about you always,
I miss you all the time,
And just to be near you,
There's no mountain I wouldn't climb,

I want to hold you close,
Your hugs are a bliss,
And I really can't wait,
To feel your soft kiss,

Sometimes I am wondering,
Cause I just can't see,
Why a perfect little angel,
Would choose someone like me,

You'll always be perfect,
In every single way,
I'm gonna love waking up to you,
Every single day, you are a blessing,

Sent straight from above,
You're so special to me,
And I wanna show you my love.

More Than You Know

I'd like to tell you
how much I love you,
and I hope you know that I do...
I wish that the words I speak
so gently to you could be
heard by your heart
with the same meanings
and the same soft feelings of love
that they carry from deep within me.

For more than you know ...
I love so many things about you.
More than just the way you hold me
and the warmth you give;
I enjoy sharing life with you.
I enjoy the way we balance each other out,
how we share the good times
and support each other through the tears.
I enjoy the knowledge that we'll make it
through whatever life brings
with courage and with love
through the years.

More than you know ...
and more than I can ever say,
I feel a wonderful thankfulness
in my heart ... just for you.
And I want you to remember, though
my thoughts don't always convey
and my feelings don't always show,
I love you,
and I always will
..more than you know.

I Just Want To Tell You

I just want to tell you,
I love you with all my heart.
I wish for us to be together,
Never shall we be apart.

I just want to tell you,
You put the smile on my face.
I want to be by your side,
I don't want to be any other place.

I just want to tell you,
You mean so much to me.
I see you as nothing less than the world,
And that I want you to see.

I just want to tell you,
I wouldn't be able to live without you.
Without the comfort you give,
There's nothing I could do.

I just want to tell you,
I thank you for being there.
You've always given me a shoulder to lean on,
And you always care.

I just want to tell you,
I think of you every moment of the day.
And how much I love you,
Words could never even say.

I just want to tell you,
I love you with all my heart.
I wish for us to be together,
Never shall we be apart.

Its hard

2009-08-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

Today.. I knelt down in front of a girl.. The second time of my life.. I have never done this before.. And this time, it was in a public place..

Why? My mind says I should respect you, my heart says I don't give a shit and I wanna love you..

But one thing is for sure, I miss you like hell now..

Anything For My Angel

2009-08-06T03:13:00.000+08:00

Without you by my side my life is spinning
I wish there was a way for me to be right next to you
I feel so lost, in this world of desire
I want to be with you so bad
It feels as if my heart is on fire

I'm constantly stuck in this struggle to survive
Life isn't worth living without you by my side
There are memories of us that I try to hide
But I can't, because they are the only way I get through my life

I mean this with all my heart
If there is a way to get to you, I will
If there is a way for me to see you, I will
If there is a way for us to beat these hard times, we will

The way I know this is simply because I LOVE YOU
And that is enough to get through anything!

My Only Love

2009-08-05T01:44:00.001+08:00

To a woman as beautiful as can be,
The only one I want with me.
The sunshine of my brightest day
the one that takes my lonely away.
You are my dream that really came true
without your love,
I don't know what I would do.
You make me feel like I'm a king
and I always want you to be my queen.
I love you more than you'll ever know
and want you to take my love where ever you go.
You'll always be in my heart
and nothing can ever tear us apart.
You are my world, my life it seems
you're in my thoughts and all my dreams.
I'll love you for the rest of your life and cherish every minute
as long as you promise to keep me in it.

Thank you for today B ^^

I Promise You

2009-08-04T00:44:00.004+08:00

Darling, I make these promises to you and only you.
To love, Honor and care for you, and always be true.

I promise to love you with all of my heart.
No matter if we are together or far apart.

I promise you, when you are down.
From your face I will take your frown.

I promise to take your side when right or wrong.
Just to prove that my love for you is strong.

I promise when you're worried, I will give you hope.
And when you're confused. . . . I will help you cope.

I promise it is you whom I will tend.
For with you, will I stay until the end.

I promise when you need love, my heart I will share.
And when you are sick, for you I will care.

I promise you that nothing will change my heart.
You will feel my love even when we are apart.

I promise that my love for you will go on forever.
For it is truly to you, that I will surrender.

I promise to give you all that I have to give.
I'll do anything for you, for as long as I live.

I promise when you're sad, I will dry your tears.
I'll help solve all of our problems throughout our years.

Darling, I make these promises to you and only you.
I promise to love, Honor and care for you, and always be true.

Tagged by Shi Ting

2009-08-02T01:28:00.003+08:00

1. What have you been doing recently?
Writing many many poems

2. Do you ever turn your hand phone off?
Erm.. Only when I have no battery

3. What happened at 10am today?
I have no idea, I was sleeping

4. When did you last cry?
Last night

5. Believe in Fate/ Destiny?
Yeah. I do

6. What do you want in life now?
Happiness for her

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
Put up my hood

8. What's your favorite thing to do in bed?
Sleeping, chatting and making out XD

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
Shorts

10. What are the nicest thing in your inbox?
Her smses

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
Lol.. I guess?

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Harry Potter

14. What are you proud of?
Proud of how she handled thursday night

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
Happy Birthday from Shi Ting

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Touch My Hand by David Archuleta

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Steven, Gerald, Fucker!

18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
Good night, sweet dreams by Vicky Chai

19. What time did you sleep last night?
Roughly about 6.45 a.m this morning actually..

20. Are you currently happy?
Haha.. Quite happy actually

21. Who give you the best advise?
Her, my family and yee teng

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Nope

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Shi Ting

24. Is something bugging you right now?
Nope

25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
Shi Ting

26. Do you like yourself?
Haha.. maybe?

27. You want $5 or $10?
Neither

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
Yeap

29. Who is your best best best best best friend?
Hmm.. I don't wanna state names

30. What will you do if you like that girl?
Which girl? Not Shi Ting, no like

31. Who are your favorite stars?
The brightest ones

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
Yeah

33. Do you had even stead before?
What on earth is this?

34. What type of girl do you like?
No idea...

35. Now are you single/attached?
Single XD

Pass this tag to 8 people:

[1] Shi Ting
[2] Evonne
[3] Sheena Liam
[4] Michelle Lim
[5] Gloria
[6] Kevin
[7] Eu gene
[8] Zhenyu
[9] Han yi
[10] Casey

1. Would you date number 5?
Nah.. Never

2. Number 2 just got a car crash and how do you react?
Laugh, ask how she is, laugh again.. then go check on how she is

3. You see no.9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
Hmm.. nothing?

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
I'll probably wonder how she got in..

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
Kinda normal for her ^^

6. Number 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
Good luck

7. Number 7 just got a ticket for him/her and you to go to a concert.
Yeah sure, why not..

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
Drink man! drink!

9. No. 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
Aww.. write me cards lol

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
Probably got arrested for having a good time

11. Number 7 and you sitting on the couch watching a movie when her/him wrap his/her arm around you.
Gay bastard

12. Number 5 ask you out for dinner.
Well.. that's good.. she owes me anyway

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on the bus.
Chat.. chat... chat...

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of night because she/he can't sleep.
Chat till either one falls asleep

15. You're walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
Good luck with that lol..

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
Comfort her, make her feel better..

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen suddenly aflame.
Say I knew it and bring out the fire extinguisher

18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
Not bad.. welcome back from Australia.

19. Number 4 just got u an x-box.
Thanks?

20. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
hahaha... She will never think so

21. Number 7 looks lonely.
I will accompany him lol..

22.Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave him/her alone.
Too bad for her then ^^

23. Number 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
Be very grateful ^^

24. Number 6 decide to dye her/his hair black. What do you say about that?
Won't make a difference really..

25. Number 7 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where he/she went.
Go find out what happened.

26. Number 1, 3, 5 and 6 all tackle at you once. Is it possible?
Yeah.. sure.. why not? ^^

The Way You Make Me Feel

2009-08-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me feel
My life has been worth while

I love the way you hold me tight
I love the way you smell
I love the way you make me feel
What words just can not tell

I love the way you hold my hand
I love the way you touch
I love the way you make me feel
That I am worth so much

I love the way you walk with me
I love the way you speak
I love the way you make me feel
As my knees grow weak

I love the way you hug me close
I love the way you kiss
I love the way you make me feel
This love I will always miss

I love you because its my decision

If Only Love Could Speak

2009-08-01T14:12:00.002+08:00

Only if love could speak

Would it utter a special wish of joy
Only if love could speak
Would it admire the rare essence of you
If only it could guarantee
As much as the value of your soul
Only if love could speak
Would it caress your beauty from within
Only if love could speak
I would say life is full of little treasures
And you are one of them
Only if love could speak
Would it say that I'm completely in love with you

If I was

2009-07-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

If I was God . . .
I'll take you to my paradise
If I was a flower . . .
I'd bloom for you at every sunrise
If I was the moon . . .
I'd glow your path and make it bright
If I was water . . .
I'd quench your thirst and bathe you right
If I was the sun . . .
I'd keep you warm and make you shine
If I was a poet . . .
I'd write you lines that makes you rhyme
If I was teddy . . .
I'd bear your nights and hold you tight
If I was a demon . . .
I'd take your soul and make you my angel
If I was a king . . .
I'd give you my kingdom and make you my queen.
But . . . Since I am me, and only me, I can only give
you my loving heart, admire you at all times and hope you were mine.

Thank you for today..

It's going to be OK

2009-07-31T09:54:00.003+08:00

Dedicated to B,

It's all going to be OK. Get some rest. If you are in need of someone, I'm always ready for you. I love you.

I'm good..

2009-07-29T17:11:00.001+08:00

When friends and family come around and ask me
All I say is
I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright

Deep in side I know I can't take any more
It's killing me slowly
Physically mentally
There's nothing left in me.

But I don't want people to feel sorry for me
That's why I say
I'm good I'm good

Some times I can't even talk
I can't walk
See the end of the road
Somebody help me
Oh say somebody help me
ooohhh

I don't want people to feel sorry for me
That's why I say
I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright

My friends and family that's all I tells them but
Deep inside I'm dying baby
Oh...no...no...no

I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright
Said I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright..

Love of My Life - Foo Shi Ting

2009-07-29T14:36:00.000+08:00

Like the stars in the sky,
I am calling to you.

From the heavens above,
I am looking for you.

In the depths of my soul,
I will live and breathe for you.

Sadness dwells inside you;
You have nothing to fear,

for I am next to you.
I can feel your sadness;

Let me be sad for you,
so you will feel love once again.

Worry not about life,
let me worry for you.

You should always love life,
for it is a part of you.

I'll be there when you fall,
to catch you and say I Love You...

You're the Only One

2009-07-28T18:04:00.003+08:00

There are times I can't recognize who I am
There are moments I am without a feeling
There are spaces that happiness can't fulfill
There are clouds not even sunshine can take away.

And though darkness gathers,
And though the silence just gets quieter,
The very thought of you,
And everything you do
Just makes me calm down, and leave that wretched place.

You're the peace inside my soul,
You're spirit of my heart,
You're love that I hold.

You're the magic all around me,
You're my bright and shining star.
You're the greatest friend of all,
And you're the only one.

If only you believed,
And saw me there in front of you.
If you let your heart love again,
You'll find peace as you wanted to.

And when all hope seems dull,
I will always pick you up.
If there's no way out,
You know I'll never give up.

And though darkness gathers,
The very thought of you,
And everything you do
Just makes me feel alright.
'Cause you're the only one.

You're the only one.

Why do I love you?

2009-07-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

I love you,
because of who you are,
and not what you are.

I do crazy things, weird things, normal things,
because I love you,
because of who you are.

You make me want to be the best,
Without a word, because I love you,
because of who you are.

In my heart,
You are number one,
The special one,
Because I love you,
For who you are.

I love it,
When we laugh,
When we call each other names,
It makes me happy,
Thus, I love you even more,
Because of who you are.

Love is a gamble,
Love is a risk,
Love is a miracle,
Love does exist.

So why do I love you?
That's easy,
The answer is,
Because you are Shi Ting.

My Life

2009-07-27T21:39:00.001+08:00

My Life
Some days seem like a struggle to get through
Some are a breeze
I question my purpose and reason
But no answer has yet come
I know there's a purpose for me bigger
Than life itself
But where do I begin to get these
Questions answered

I was put here to do great things and
To make a difference in other's life
Some days I feel helpless and lost
Unimportant and useless
Other days I feel like I make all the difference
Needed and wanted
There's never a balance, just a high and a low

But when I hear about others who are helpless and lost
Those who haven't even made it to smell a breath of fresh air
I feel selfish for even having such thoughts
Then I realize that my purpose is just that
To live, love, and enjoy life to the fullest.

I found this in a website. I find it something worth sharing with everyone out there..

The Only One

2009-07-26T12:57:00.003+08:00

My kind of music,
My favorite song,
I want to be with you
All day and all night long...

Through nine people,
I wondered who would be my sun,
Ever since I knew you
You were the only one...

All the love in the world,
All the love that we see,
Once added up,
It is equal to what I feel inside of me.

My best friend,
My only lover,
From 30th April onwards,
In my heart, I'll keep you forever...

To share a good smile,
Or some unhappy tears,
You're the one I go to
Through all the coming years...

When it rains it rains,
When it snows it snows,
I wrote this only for you
And you're the only one who knows...

I keep you warm,
When nature is cold,
You are my heart's owner, because
To you it was sold...

Whether playing our favorite games,
Or to music we sing & listen,
When it comes to you
There's just no competition...

Not the best cut diamonds,
Or the reddest rose,
Could ever amount to
When you hold me close...

And when everything is said and done,
The night is over and we've had our fun,
Out of all the girls, I choose just one,
The best one of all, and that's you, B.
The only one.

My love for you

2009-07-25T10:33:00.001+08:00

Strong is, my love for you,

A love so pure, so real, so true,

A love so deep, Its hard believing,
To be with you, is what I'm dreaming,

My love for you, is the real thing,
I wrote this song, for you to sing,

My love for you is a sunrise,
Born new each day, but never dies,

My love for you, its has no question,
To cherish each moment, that is the lesson,

My love for you, I know is right,
I dream about you, every night,

First thought I have, and last at night,
I will love you til the end of time

A little poem

2009-07-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry

Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.

I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad
When you tell me of the day you had

I love you truly
I love you deeply

Ever since the day
I let you meet me

I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever

Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance

I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and your warm kiss

I love you

Change...

2009-07-23T17:04:00.002+08:00

Today I saw a change in my behavior

Something was different about me

I engaged myself thinking about things

Things that no normal 18 year old should be thinking about

A sign of maturity caught my eye as i began to pursue what was the most important thing to me, my family

Family has always been the ones to comfort you when your sailing low in your cloudy thoughts

And find a way to bring you to sanity

Your family are the people in your life that you look to for advice and support

Today, something out of the ordinary embraced my daily life

And I was shot down with a dark bolt of lighting that got me to realize

What meant the most to me and how to pursue it

The little things in life mean the most to people

And you dont realize how much you care about that special one until the day they don't exist anymore

The day they are revoked from the world

These small things are just so sentimental to the heart that sometimes

Its the only thing that keeps your heart ticking

Finding the right way to approach your flaws is key

The hardest part of growing up is finding a way to break free

Finding a way of letting go what your used to

And moving on with something your not

Change in your life isnt always easy to pursue

Turning your back on things that your used to

Or even things that you found thrilling can turn to a wild depression state of mind

Change in your life isn't always easy to soak in

Knowing when the time is right

Knowing when the heart is ready

Knowing when the brain is stable

All key factors in changing you see

There is a time and a place for everything in this world

There is a moment in life of willingness to proceed in life

To be the best you can be

Change in your life isn't always easy to pursue

The answers in life you wish to seek

Are only a footstep away, a footstep closer to happiness

The true meaning of change isn't to leave behind your worries like nothing happened

The true meaning of change is the willingness in your heart to be the best you can be

The true meaning of change is you.

I woke up, thinking...

2009-07-18T10:55:00.005+08:00

符诗婷，我真的爱你。。
现在我很想念你。。
昨天，我真的很开心。。
谢谢你。。
对我而言，你真的很棒。。
我觉得，你是我的心跳，如果没有你，我不是人。。
因为，我的心不在我的身体里面了。。

现在，我真的很想念你。。

Thank you.

2009-07-16T11:50:00.006+08:00

符诗婷，谢谢你。。我爱你。。现在，我真的很想念你。。给我，这个感觉。。是一个很强烈的感觉。。我不知道要怎样说。。但是，我知道一个东西。。

我真的想念你，
还有。。
我真的很爱你。。
谢谢你。。

Foo Shi Ting, you are the special one for me

2009-07-14T23:41:00.001+08:00

符诗婷，你对我来说很特别。

Don't apologize

2009-07-13T15:45:00.004+08:00

Not to me. I love you, that's why I want to do this. There's no other reasons why. I know you love freedom, I know you are crazy.. But I still accept it. There's really no other reasons why I'm doing what I am doing.

I love you, my love.

我爱你，符诗婷。因为，是我愿意。。
因为，心跳解释到没有了你不能跳，
我爱你，直到我人生的尽头。

我愿意

2009-07-12T12:36:00.003+08:00

Love is amazing,
Love is a miracle,
Love is sweet,
Love is beautiful.

Love is how I love you,
Love is how I feel,
Love is what I need,
Love is what I give.

Love is a feeling between two people,
Love is a mutual respect,
Love is the total honesty,
Love is a harmonious bond.

Love is how you care,
Love is how you give,
Love is how we are as a couple,
Love is what defines us.

Love is why I'm willing,
Love is why I'm changing,
Love is why I'm crying,
Love is why I'm dying.

Love is why you are worth it all,
The sweat,
The tears,
The pain.

Don't you see? I love you
Accept the fact that I am willing to accept you as who you are.
I know, that taking this road will bring many pain and unhappiness. But I don't care. I'll use a million years to show to you that this is the road I want to take. I may cry, I may be hurt, I may even kill myself in the end. But it all comes down to this, I am willing to go down this road.

I am a weird and horrible person. I may do many things that causes trouble or conflict. But I do know what love is. And I definitely know that,
I love you

谁说的？你值不值得是由我来决定的，不是吗？

2009-07-11T15:03:00.005+08:00

谁说的？你值不值得是由我来决定的，不是吗？

A love so true,
A love so pure,
With that within us,
How can you not be worth it?

You are my life,
My happiness,
My love,
How can you not be worth it?

You give me a reason,
To live everyday,
To be thankful everyday,
How can you not be worth it?

I am always in the shadows,
Observing you,
Even though I am hurt,
Just one smile from you,
Makes life more beautiful,
How can you not be worth it?

I make mistakes,
I make errors,
For you, I'm willing to change the whole world,
How can you not be worth it?

Touch after touch,
Hug after hug,
Kiss after kiss,
You leave me wanting more and more,
How can you not be worth it?

Tears after tears,
Sweat after sweat,
I shed all that for you because I want to,
How can you not be worth it?

Our story is complicated,
I am complicated,
You are complicated,
Even with all the complications,
How can you not be worth it?

Craziness,
Is a part of you, and always will be,
Even though it hurts me deeply,
When I see your happy face,
How can you not be worth it?

I've written more poems for you,
Bought more presents for you,
Worked so hard for you,
Than anyone I have ever met,
How can you not be worth it?

With a heart so beautiful,
With a heart so caring,
Yet with a heart so mysterious,
How can you not be worth it?

Every part of you now,
I miss it,
I love it,
Now tell me again,
How can you not be worth it?

This is not a complain,
It is my way of expressing how I feel right now,
As I type these words out,
I am thinking,
How can you not be worth it?

I want us to be together again,
Stronger,
More open to one another,
Without a care for the future,
Just the present.

符诗婷,我爱你

我不要, 因为我知道, 没有可能

2009-07-11T01:21:00.002+08:00

我不要, 因为我知道, 没有可能

Life goes on,
My love goes on,
My mistakes stay.

Having to admit,
Is always a hard thing,
To do.

To do so,
One must have forget,
His pride.

A man's pride,
Is his most,
Treasured possesion.

However,
By forgetting it,
He is sacrificing.

For a happiness,
That will last a lifetime,
What is a small sacrifice like this?

I admit,
to you now,
in the only way left for communicating.

I plan,
I acted,
I hide.

I am wrong,
And I beg,
For forgiveness.

For I,
Have been humbled,
Brought down to my knees.

By a love
That is so strong,
That is so pure.

You really understand me

2009-07-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

In this lonely night,
Before the clock strike 12,
I am thinking of you,
Over and over again,
I'm wondering that,
If you were beside me,
I guarantee..
You'll make me happy with your smile,
You'll make me warm with your hug,
You'll make me blissful with your kiss,
You'll make me strong with your words,
And lastly,
Lonely is a word that I do not know,
When I'm around you,
Because now,
I really miss you, my love
I really love you, my sweetheart
Because you understand whatever I want
Because you understand whatever I need
Because you are the one for me,
There is really no one else,
Who understands me like you,
Shi Ting,
I love You.

You are not alone

2009-07-09T22:27:00.005+08:00

Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

This song is by the late Michael Jackson. And I am dedicating this to you. Although we're not far away, I want you to know that you are always in my heart.
我爱你，直到我人生的尽头

Is tomorrow going to be the same?

2009-07-09T22:23:00.001+08:00

Is it just like previous years? Or will it finally be meaningful to me? I don't know but I pray to God that you are there for me. That's the best gift that I can ever wish for.

Tagged by Shi Ting

2009-07-08T00:40:00.003+08:00

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Steven
2. Jia Liang
3. Gerald
4. Steven Fok

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. Her birthday
2. My birthday
3. Anniversaries
4. Other peoeple's birthday

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. Texted her
2. Changed
3. Chatted on MSN
4. Missed her

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Exercise
2. Laugh
3. Dance
4. Kiss :)

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. My grandparents
2. Her
3. My best friend
4. My other best friend

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A surprise
2. Birthday bash
3. Her presence :)
4. Something that means a lot to me

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
1. Exercising
2. Dancing
3. Taking care of her
4. Sms-ing

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. Hawaii
2. Paris
3. Venice
4. Ipoh

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Iced lemon tea
2. Iced Milo
3. Alchohol
4. Teh Tarik

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
Err.. I don't usually carry around a bag

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Red
2. Black
3. White
4. Blue

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. Sunway Pyramid
2. Taylor PJ campus
3. SS 15
4. Her House

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Shi Ting
2. My family
3. My friends
4. Whoever loves me out there.

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. Her of course.
2. My time spent with her
3. My dancing
4. My family

TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
No one?

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. becuz Shi Ting tagged me
2. I wanted her to see my anwers
3. I am bored
4. I am waiting for some pictures to download finish

THE PEOPLE WHO I GOING TO TAG:
No one. Lucky guys

Who else but me?

2009-07-06T20:29:00.006+08:00

When it is rough and harsh,
stop for a moment,
and think,
who is supporting you all the time?
I am.

When you are sad,
Or happy,
Or angry,
stop and think,
who will be feeling those same feelings together with you?
I am.

When you feeling like hitting something,
Or killing someone,
Stop!
And think,
Who will be willing to let you kill or hurt him?
I am.

When you are having troubles,
Or you cannot make a decision,
Stop and think,
Who will be the one who is willing to listen to you?
To guide you?
I am.

And when you are feeling down,
Or you just have trouble smiling,
Stop and think,
Who will be ready to make you smile and make your day better?
I am.

After saying all this,
Verse after verse,
Line after line
words after words,
Stop and think,
Who is thinking about you right now?
Who loves you so much?
Who is the person who won't let you get into any danger?

I am.

I love you

2009-07-04T14:13:00.006+08:00

In a moment of darkness,
Your light came shining through,
For a moment, it made me senseless,
Then it all became true.

Your love powered me,
Energized me,
Driven me,
Inspired me,
And with that, a little poem for you :-

There's only 1 way for me,
2 say,
Those 3 words,
4 you.
I love you.

4 everything you did for me,
there is only 3 words that can be said,
2 you,
in only 1 way,
I love you.

There's no 1 else,
2 care for you,
and mean those 3 words like I do,
again, 4 the world to see and read,
I love you.

4 as long as my heart beats,
these 3 words will continue living,
2 you, I will always care,
Not in 1 way, but every way possible,
I love you.

The Reason

2009-06-23T18:12:00.003+08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I dedicate this song to Foo Shi Ting. The girl I am waiting for. The girl I care and love.

I love you

A new day with yesterday's purposes

2009-06-21T04:29:00.002+08:00

Talking to you.. That's one of the hardest yet easiest things I can do right now. Hardest because I can feel the hurt. Easiest because I love talking to you. No, I am not complaining nor am I commenting. I'm just thankful that we could still talk things over.

Something we talked about made me think now. Am I really possesive? If you asked me, I honestly would not know. I'm not saying that I am not. I am saying that I don't know. Because, compared with my previous relationships, I have let you off a lot more than the others. It is probably because of that, is why I do not feel I am possesive or otherwise. My heart tells me that I am not, but my mind wonders, do the people around me feel so? Well... that has been answered for me a few days ago. Yes, I am portraying myself as a possesive person. I shoot glances of anger and jealousy whenever you talk to someone else that I think of as someone who could take you away from me. I am saying this according to what I've been told, but honestly, I had no conscious idea regarding this. Because in my own mind, I would try to engage myself in a conversation but I would constantly glance at you to check on you. Like you said, it could be according to the Johari's Window, that this is the blind part of my personality. Maybe it is. But now it is in the open. I know it now and I am perfectly willing to make a conscious effort to keep this intact. It'll take time surely, but I will do everything in my willpower to continuously control that part of me.

You said that I am hiding my feelings from you, like I smile at you if you look at me. I don't know what to say other than that I am sorry you felt that. Because everytime you ask if I was ok, I would ask myself the same in my heart, and my heart will say yes most of the time. It is arguable that deep down, I did feel something. But when my heart said yes, then it comes right out of my mouth. If I had thought longer or took a longer time to ask myself again, the answer might or might not be different.

Thank you for telling me all this, Ting. I really appreciate it. I will continue proving myself. I will wait for you to accept me again. I will use our conversation earlier to further change myself. As a better friend. And hopefully, as a better boyfriend to you.

I love you

Grasping and running towards the tunnel of hope

2009-06-20T11:05:00.003+08:00

Thanks for coming out with me last night. It really meant a lot to me. I'm happy that we managed to talk and speak our minds. Maybe its a new start? Maybe its a new ending? I do not know.. but as long as there is hope of getting back with you, that's the hope that I will be holding on to. Seeing you smile, seeing you laugh.. it reminded me so much about what used to be and what could have been. However, I did not appreciate it last time.. but this time its different. I'm a new man. I've learned from my mistakes. Maybe you need evidence about it, maybe you want to hear from other people's mouths. Which ever it is, I will not make the same mistake again. I will put my whole body and soul into making sure of that.

I swear, upon my family's name, to Foo Shi Ting and to everyone else, that I, Steven Fok Jia Liang, will put my entire body and soul into making sure that a lie never escapes my mouth ever again. No more untruths, no more half truths. From now on, it is all just the truth. And along with that, I would like to swear that I am truly sorry and I am really doing my best to repent and redeem myself. As a boyfriend, as a best friend, as a friend.

Give me a chance to prove myself

2009-06-19T13:33:00.002+08:00

I know it is a hard time for you. It's hard for me too. I hurt the person I love the most, whom loved me back more than anyone ever did. And not only that, I hurt you in the most hurtful way possible to you. I just want you to know that I lied for a reason. I'm not saying that because of that reason, therefore I am right. I know I am wrong for lying to you. I know you could've accepted any wrongdoings of mine other than that. But I still did it. I am sorry. There is nothing but guilt and repentance in my heart right now.

I would also like to say that, even if I lied about certain stuff, I did not lie about how I felt for you. I did not lie when I said I am willing to be the one you rely on. I did not lie when I said it's ok to send back home, or to accompany you back by train. I did not lie when I said you were the one for me. And lastly, I did not lie when I said that I love you in my room, which was the first time I said those 3 words to you and I did not lie when I said I love you ever since that day.

Please give me a chance to prove myself to you as a boyfriend worthy enough of you. I am really sorry for what I did and I'm going to set things straight between me and everyone that was involved. Please reconsider me.

I love you

Thanks to my course mates that were there today.

2009-06-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

To the people who were willing to listen to me, thanks. I apologize for my previous post about you guys. I realize now that I'm the one who is to be blamed. I've been tactless and I've been lying. I'm glad that you guys gave me the chance to come clean. And just as a side note, I'm posting it online so that everyone who had read it before, can now read the actual truth. No other intentions. It might not be much, but its the least I could do. Thank you again.

I'm working on it... I really am

2009-06-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

I can't put into words the feelings I have right now. The closest I can get to it is that I feel absolute regret to what I have did. I know I have to give you time and space. I respect that. But I would not stop trying. There's something special between us and I was an idiot to have lost sight of that the first time. Please give me a chance to appreciate it this time. That's all I ask.

I am sorry.

2009-06-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

I lied to you when I shouldn't have to. No, I lied to you when I didn't have to. I realize that is was a stupid thing to do. But trust me when I say this now and I want the whole world to know this.

I am truly in love with you, Foo Shi Ting. I didn't want any of this to happen. Please accept my apology and please allow me a chance to make things right again. You might feel that it can't be helped, that it can't be saved. Half of our coursemates might even feel that. But what we had was special. I'm sure you felt it too. And there's no way I could fake that. I just wish right now, that I am the person who accompanies you all the way back to tasik selatan just because you're tired, that I am the person who drives you back to your house whenever I have the car, because that's the person I am. I care about you. I love you. I really would not make the same mistake again.. Ever.

Futile

2009-05-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

The word speaks for itself. The futility of me trying is just too obvious now. Why I bothered in the first place, I have no idea... But it is all obvious now. So be it. Jus thought it might be different now.

Recent Happenings

2009-04-21T18:15:00.002+08:00

So yeah, to those in college, especially Keith, Ling, John and MS, u guys probably know the things I've been through =P

Just wanted to say thanks to those who helped me see the light and to MS, sorry for sending the wrong signals. We're still cool ^_^

Like what Keith said, won't go into details but all I can say is I'm heading to college tomorrow with a hell lot lighter attidude XD

Intuition

2009-03-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

When you begin to listen
And hang on every word,
You get an intuition.
Your mind is now your lord.

You hear this voice, inside you,
The voice you've heard before.
This voice has been there for you.
This voice has opened doors.

As just a little girl,
You found a special friend,
This voice told you "Just do it!
Your joy will never end!"

Remember all those times
This voice was in your mind.
It will be there forever,
Until the end of time.

In only a few seconds,
If you should hear this voice,
You can really trust it,
Let it make your choice.

This voice now whispers to you
The thoughts that come between
Your thoughts, inside your heart,
The wishes deep within.

The wishes you're denying,
The ones you're longing for.
This voice tells you, "Just do it.
Step through that open door.

Leave all your cares behind you,
Your future now unfolds.
You're free from inhibition.
Free from society's holds.

Take in what is before you,
Embrace it in your soul.
Allow it deep inside you,
And let it fill that hole."

This voice knows what you're thinking.
This voice is very wise.
Just trust your intuition,
And follow its advice.

To please those who asked for an update

2009-01-22T20:54:00.003+08:00

I shall now show pictures bout my driving lessons lol.. Haven't got my P yet, but I'll get it soon. Look out roadie!! Here comes Steven =P

Gloria, Michelle Yoong, Eu Gene and Shao Kay

Me, Gloria, Michelle Yoong and Eu Gene

Michelle Yoong and Gloria

Eu Gene, Me, Michelle Yoong and Hui Sian

Me and Michelle

Michelle and Gloria

Tagged by Pei Ying

2008-10-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

1. What's your ambition?
To be someone who have achieved success in life.

2. If you were given a superpower, what will it be and what will you use it for?
I think I'll want the ability to read minds. That way I don't have to worry about what to say in front of a girl I like.

3. What is your favorite food?
Western food, pizza, and other Chinese foods ^^

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Well.. I think I do have enough confidence.

5. How many babies you want?
Er.. Wifey?!! Help me here????

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbows after the rain?
Yeah, I do.

7. What is your goal for this year?
Score well for my SPM and go back to dancing.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
Yes, I do.

9. Have you ever been abandoned by someone?
Yes

10. What feeling do you love most?
The feeling of loving someone and having that person love you back

11. What is your bad habit?
I think I talk too much...

12. Is there anything you want to tell the people who hates you?
Good luck in life.

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes, I always do.

14. What does flying means to you?
Freedom

15. What do you crave for most currently?
SPM to be over with.

16. List 3 most important person in your life?
My mom, my dad and my sister

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
She is an amazing person and friend

18. You found your other half?
Nope.. I have not.

19. What will you become in 10 years to come?
A 27 year old man.

20. What is your lucky number?
8 and 11

Instructions
Remove one question from above and add in your personal question
Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people
List them out at the end of the post
Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged
Whoever does this tag will have blessings from all

The 8 people I tag is:
Amanda
Eu Gene
Evonne
Felicia Soo
Jin Rui
Michelle Lim
Stephanie Lee
Suet Ling

Knowing myself better

2008-10-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Well.. that's it. do you guys agree?

Heads up on my life

2008-10-25T12:19:00.002+08:00

Here's the story. I used to have a crush on this certain girl back in primary school. It was a pretty big thing considering I liked her for 5 years straight. Back then, I probably earned the reputation for the biggest jerk on SK BBSP (1). Not thanks to me though but thanks to a certain short dude who really hated me and practically spread rumours and gossiped like a conniving bitch.

Anyway, that girl never knew me for who I was. Maybe it was a good thing, maybe it was bad but I'd never know. Now here's the big thing.

Came to secondary school. Made a lot of friends, made a few best friends, and turned over a new leaf. Now, in my final year of secondary school, I found out today , 25th October 2008, that my best friend is really close friends with the very same girl I liked back in primary. Coincidence?? Fate?? Karma??? What do you think?

Happy Birthday Zhenyu

2008-10-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

Finally you're 17 XD. Glad you had fun just now.

P.S. I asked two girls to go prom as my date. They turned me down, laughing the whole time.

Tagged by Stephanie

2008-10-01T00:06:00.004+08:00

What is the relationship of you and her/him?
Well, we were best friends throughout year 2006 then when she left school, we sorta drifted apart. I still treat her as a best friend though.

Your 5 impression of her/him?
Hmm.. I first met her during a movie at Sandra's place. I'd say quiet, shy-then-friendly, beautiful, good chatter and finally easy-going.

Most memorable things she/he have said to you?
Erm.. that would be when she said that I was a great friend o.0

Most memorable things she/he have done for you?
She comforted me throughout my many quarrels with my parents.

If she/he becomes your lover, you will..
TREASURE HER. Chances of me and her being together is like nil though.. So, what's the use of thinking? Haha..

If she/he becomes your enemy, you will..
I refuse to answer that cause I'm positive it won't happen

If she/he becomes your lover, she will have to improve on..?
Her tendency to cry and be clingy

The most desirable thing to do on her is..
See her in a tank top which is definitely so not Stephanie

The overall impression of her/him..
Pretty great

How do you feel the people around you feel about you?
Well.. I think a lot of people call me arrogant, and they don't like the fact that I talk to girls as easily as guys.

The character of you for yourself..
Geez... I can't answer this.. People will think I'm very perasan

On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself?
The fact that I find beautiful girls a turn on

The most ideal person you wanna be?
Someone who has success in life, whatever that success may be.

For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them..
God bless you

List 10 people to tag.
Amanda Khoo
Ee Von
Eu Gene
Felicia Soo
Evonne Teo
Pei Ying
Suet Ling
Tevannea
Trisha Teo
Petrina Lim

Promise

2008-09-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

I hereby make a deal with Pei Ying of Seri Cempaka that if she passes her exams or I feel that her results aren't bad, I will belanja her makan to anything below 20 ringgit.

Signed,
Steven Fok Jia Liang

How I am

2008-08-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

You know.. I've never felt this way.

People I treated as close friends are users. Some were my friends just because I was their friend's bf but after we broke up, they drifted away from me. Others had their own bf or gf to be with. Friends in school have other friends. Maybe it's partially my fault because I am a prefect and I can't hang out with them during recess where everyone is together and having fun and chatting. Maybe I was the one to blame for believing I belonged.

For the first time in my life.

I was lonely.

Miss Malaysia Tourism 2008

2008-08-11T22:28:00.006+08:00

Finally got some stuff to update about. Sorry for the lack of updates, been real busy and my computer got spoiled. Anyway, here's some photos on the Miss Malaysia 2008.

Me and Joey in our Malay costume

All the Dancers in the Fire costumes

Dance V Me students with Jessie

Dance V Me students with the pageants

Samantha and Miss Malaysia Tourism 2008

Hai Yuan with Jessie

Dance V Me's pride and joy, Hai Yuan as Queen of The Year

Hai Yuan is a latin dancer at my studio, Dance V Me. The ironic thing is, last year, she was a dancer at the Miss Tourism Metropolitan 2007 whereas this year, she'll be a contestant. Haha.. All the best to Hai Yuan.

If you guys want to see the event, channel in to Astro channel 304 on the 16th of August, 2 pm, and 17th of August, 1 pm. Please check us out and tell me what you think of the performance ^^

Tagged by Carmen Au

2008-05-31T14:26:00.003+08:00

SECTION 1 : HAVE YOU EVER
1. Cheated on someone? : Nope
2. Fallen off the bed? : Several times lol
3. Broken someone's heart? : I did..
4. Had your heart broken? : Yeap
5. Had a dream come true? : Sometimes, depends on what my dream was

6. Done something you regret? : Definitely

SECTION 2 : CURRENTLY

1. Wearing? : No shirt and white track pants from Forest

2. Like anyone? : I like all my friends

3. Have any piercings? : Nope

4. Drive? : Drove illegally before

5. Ever Smoked? : Never

6. Tattoos? : Do paste-ons count?

SECTION 3 : LAST PERSON YOU...

1. Hugged? : Sandra Lee

2. Kissed? : SuZen

3. IMed? : Sarah Stuart

4. Talked on the phone to? : My dad

5. Yelled at? : Don't remember

SECTION 4 : PERSONAL

1. What do you/did you want to be when you finish(ed) school? : I don't know, someone along the lines of communication?

2. What has been the best day of your life? : 7th March 2008

3. What comes first in your life? : Loved ones

4. What are you most scared of? : Creepy crawly insects

5. What do you usually think about before you go to bed? : I don't think of something, I think of someone =P

6. Did you lose someone you really loved? : Yeah...

SECTION 5 : FAVORITE

1. Movie : Way too many

2. Song : Low by Flo-Rida and Blind by Lifehouse

3. Ice Cream Flavor : Chocolate

4. Fruit : Orange, Mango, Pineapple, Apple and Watermelon

5. Candy : Lollipops

6. Day of the Week : Wednesdays and Fridays

7. Color : Red, White, Blue and Black

SECTION 6 : DO YOU

1. Like to give hugs? : Love them

2. Like to walk in the rain? : If I'm not having my handphone

3. Prefer black or blue pens? : Blue

4. Like to travel? : Yeah

5. Sleep on your side? : Yes I do, But mostly on my belly

6. Have a goldfish? : I do but technically my dad owns them

7. Ever have the falling dream? : The type of dream where you're falling off somewhere? Yes

8. Have stuffed animals? : Yeap

SECTION 7 : THIS OR THAT

1. Pierced nose or tongue? : None

2. MTV or BET? : MTV

3. 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? : 7th Heaven

4. Sugar or salt? : Sugar

5. Silver or gold? : Gold

6. Chocolate or flowers? : Both? Chocolates for me, Flowers for my GF

7. Color or Black-and-white photos? : Never had a black and white before

8. M&Ms or skittles? : Both

9. Stay up late or sleep in? : Both

10. Hot or cold? : Hot food, cold drinks

11. Ketchup or mustard? : Depends on what food they're on

12. Spring or Fall? : Spring

13. Happy or sad? : Happy

14. Wonder or amazement? : Amazement

15. Mexican or Italian food? : Italian

16. O.C. or Laguna Beach? : O.C

I Tag :

1. Chee Yern
2. Evonne Teo
3. Felicia Soo
4. HongLian
5. Jin Rui
6. Katrina Kuan
7. Petrina Lim
8. Samantha Chow

Youngest Ever

2008-05-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

Exactly like above.. Youngest ever at age 16 years 302 days. WOOOOOO I'm high.. Hahahahaha

Tagged~~

2008-04-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :
1. A refurnished bedroom
2. New computer
3. New accessories for dancing
4. New clothes
5. A kiss from my GF

. . .

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS :
Felicia Soo Wei Yeen~~

. . .

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER :
1. Noisy
2. Camwhore
3. Happy-Go-Lucky
4. Funny
5. Talkative

. . .

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU :
She was part of the original Young Bloodz crew and always will be

. . .

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU :
THANK YOU FOR COMING!! ( During her birthday )

. . .

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL :
Suffer tremendously =P

. . .

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU :
1. Petrina Lim
2. HongLian
3. Katrina Kuan
4. Yap Jin Rui
5. Stephanie Lee
6. Chee Yern
7. Li Ann
8. May Yi
9. Evonne Teo
10. Free thinker

. . .

WHO IS NO. 7 HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH?
No one

. . .

WHO IS NO.9 HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH?
Yang Ming

. . .

IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
Interesting thought.. They'll look nice together I suppose

. . .

WHAT ABOUT NO.1 AND NO.5?
Hey, I'm all cool for lesbians

. . .

WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING?

Science Stream in SBU

. . .

WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO.6?
This morning

. . .

DOES NO.4 WORK?
As a full time sms-er

. . .

DOES NO.8 HAS ANY COUSINS IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
Nope

. . .

WOULD YOU WOO NO.8?
Lol.. she's my GF's best friend, Hell NO

. . .

HOW ABOUT NO.5?
Nope

. . .

DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
One brother

. . .

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Through Felicia's party

. . .

IS NO.1 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
Close but not quite there.

CBN's IU Day

2008-04-11T21:24:00.003+08:00

First of all, I would like to congratulate all CBN Interact Members for being able to hold such a wonderful event at the Malaysian Tourism Center. The effort shown was truly obvious and adequate. So round of applause to them *inserts sound effect*

Can't say much.. Can only congratulate the performers who worked their butts off for the event, that I can tell as much. Extra credit goes to Lianne, Bridget, Pet, Pet's bf, and many others whom I do not know.

I was called up onto the stage during the middle of the event by none other by Petrina Lim.. Apparently, Felicia and Ee Yin wanted me to dance. So, I called up my dancing mate, ALVIN LEE, to dance along as we rock asses together but get pawned individually. And here's the results.

Discussing what to execute

Warming up

Still warming up

Alvin's turn to warm up

Tadaaa..

Second combo

Finishing touches

Young Bloodz survives

Sports Day 2008 for SMKBBSL

2008-03-22T15:42:00.008+08:00

Sports Day 2008 in SMKBBSL was certainly the most satisfying of all Sports Day for me. I'm the Captain for Green House, and yes, GREEN HOUSE WON!! Haha.. I won four medals, two silver and two bronze which I think isn't that bad at anyone's standard.

First of all, the day started with me being in the Kontigen SMKBBSL where I had to wear my Scout uniform and carry the Selangor Flag around the field.. Tiring business I tell you.. Very tiring indeed. Following the Kontigen was all the members of the marching squad for each house.

Kontigen SMKBBSL

Green House had 3 models which were Chong May Yi, Kanya Laikeuw and Gayaniesha. The commander was Lee Wah Lung who wore sunglasses to get that commander look. Ng Chun Keat was the flag carrier for Green House. Usually it was the Captain of the house who carries the flag, but as I was already on duty, Chun Keat took the spot.

May Yi As Model For Green House

The Green House Marching Squad

Final Pose After The March

Chun Keat With The 3 Models

Kontigen.. SEDIA!!!

After all the marching was done, started the track events and prize giving for the field events. I got second place in Long Jump with a record of 4.9m while my fellow Green House member, Sai Chen Fatt took first place with 4.92m. Just short of 2cm lol.. Chen Fatt also took home first place in High Jump with a record of 1.6m.

Me Running The 200m

Finally, after everything was done, the final prize giving was given to those who won the team events and for other categories such as Best Marching Squad, Best Decorated Tent, and so on. Green House won both the prizes for Best Marching Squad and Best Decorated Tent whereas in the tug-o-war, Green House guys got second place.

And the final result..... GREEN HOUSE WAS THE CHAMPIONS... WOOO... We all went insane after that and took many pictures with the trophies and hampers... Then all went home to rest and sleep.. Haha..

All Green House Going Crazy

Wah Lung Taking The Prize For Tug-O-War

Me Recieving The Hamper For Best Marching Squad

All The Prizes Starting To Pile Up

Green House Won!

Red House Got Second, I'm In Front With My Trophy!

Final Picture For The Day

That's all on Sports Day.. Ciaoz

Class Photo

2008-02-02T12:39:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. It's been a while eh?? Well.. nothing to update due to lack of interesting stuff and photos.. Anyway, here's my classmates for 2008.

Formal

Freestyle

Basic Freezes

2008-01-10T14:19:00.000+08:00

Here I'm going to show you the basic freezes for BreakDance. It's only in pictures, when I'm free, I might do a video.

This is the Chair Freeze. This is my personal favorite.

Egg Plant.

Elbow Freeze. This is the hardest of all the basic freezes.

Headstand. This is the painful one (at the start).

Shoulder Freeze. The easiest of them.

That's all there is so far. I'll be back with more pictures and maybe even a video the next time. Ciaoz

Career Test

2008-01-03T18:27:00.000+08:00

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to stimulate your senses and your mind, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

Novelist
Photographer
Vet
Medical Technician
Paralegal
Geologist
Marine Biologist
Graphic Designer
Online Content Developer
Webmaster
Computer Security
Producer
Computer Programmer
Technical Writer
Systems Analyst
Meteorologist
Artist

You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.

You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be involved deeply in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others at all costs.

You trust what is certain. You only like new ideas if they can be practically applied to the situation. You value what is real. You use your common sense. You like to utilise the skills you have instead of learning new ones. You are very specific and detailed when writing or talking to others. You follow directions well. You like things to be laid out for you to do instead of working them out for yourself. You like decisions to be made. You don't like things to be left in limbo. You like to know what you are getting into before you commit to something.

You like to focus on the here and now. You enjoy completing projects. It is important for you to achieve and succeed. Therefore, you believe in working hard and playing later. You like to set goals and work towards them.

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Well.. what do you guys think?? Is that me??

Tagged... By Steph

2008-01-01T10:36:00.000+08:00

Rules and Regulations.

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth (see below).
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!

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Which is your birth month? =)

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

I'm born in July.. So here goes...

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Performance and Crush

2007-12-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Yesterday, the 22nd of December, was the day of the graduation of the Holiday Program students of Dance V Me. It's also the day of my performance at Endah Parade.

The journey first started when my mom went and picked Elexne up from her guard house. Then we went off to meet Alvin, Merveen and Lynnce at the studio. But alas, when we reached, Chun Yew was there also. He didn't wanna wait for William to show up, so he followed me also...

Imagine a Kembara being fitted by 7 people?? It was bloody full.. Chun Yew sat in front cause he was the biggest. Alvin sat on me, Lynnce sat on Elexne, while Merveen just sat at the center.. Lucky girl.. Me and Alvin had a funny conversation on the way there.

Steven: ALVIN!! You weigh like a bull!!
Alvin: You same weight with me right??
Steven: So???
Alvin: So you weigh like a bull also la!!
Steven: Dang...

After the car ride, we all went to the stage. IT WAS SMALL!! When I saw it, I was like OMFG! Haihz.. Well.. we had to work something out anyway. So, while waiting for the deejay, we went to grab some snacks first. After that, begins the rehearsal.

The Stage

Can you see Dance V Me logo??

The changing room at Endah Parade

We had to change next to the lift...

Camwhoring at the stage

Alvin, Me and Merveen

During the rehearsal, all was horrible.. But then, all lousy rehearsal means a good performance. And that was what we gave. A good performance quoted by Jessie Foo, my teacher.

A photo in my costume ^^

But the process of the dancing was busy. I was in charge of getting the people all ready for their turns. I had to run here and there to get everyone done. It was tiring man.. I couldn't even finish my Fillet O'Fish...

After the performance, some of the holiday program students went over to Mei Xian's house as it was her birthday. During her birthday, we ate loads of food, and listened to loads of songs.

Most of the time though, I spent upstairs with Merveen.. Just listening to songs. Hehe.. imagine us in the dark, just listening to songs. Was pretty awesome spending time with her.

After that, we went home lol..

So about crushes, maybe you might have noticed, maybe not.. but I have a huge thing for Merveen. I feel like the both of us really connect and all.. SO, after the big performance, I asked her to be my GF, she said she'll think bout it first.. Hope it turns out well.. I really enjoy my time with her. She knows exactly what I need and want.. and I really would like her to be part of my life.

Me and Merveen

The ladder of students.. Haha

That's all for today. Will update again soon I think.

Life sucks

2007-12-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

That's all there is to my life now. It sucks.. and it sucks big time.

Steven's Back

2007-11-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

No more moping, no more emo-ing, no more being sad. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, Steven is Back!!~~ Fuck all u bastards and bitches out there who don't care bout me. I don't care bout u as well!!

Rose in Your Heart

2007-11-28T12:47:00.000+08:00

What is it like to close your eyes
As deep inside you fantasize,
These feelings which your body knows
That stem from just this single rose.

You feel a smile bloom on your lips,
Feel velvet brush your fingertips,
Feel pleasure building, blood afire,
As eyes gaze deep on heart's desire.

You sense a fragrance in the air,
and see this one who'll take you there.
a laugh of joy, a sigh of bliss,
My lips meet yours in perfect kiss.

And feeling now this dream so right
That keeps on growing, night on night
The key you've yearned for from the start
To free this rose held in your heart.

Forever.

Felicia's party

2007-11-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

Her party was da bomb man!! Loads of hot girls, plenty of music ( although its from the karaoke system ), and lots of fun. It all started all as a surprise party geh. Then someone went and call Felicia and said cannot go. Za dau...

Day started out when I went to Alvin's house. One thing leads to another, then we reach Ampang Station. I told Alvin to keep an eye out for pink girls since it was the dress code. Some dress code, me and Alvin totally didn't follow it. Haha, well.. there were 2 girls in pink there. Me and Alvin were playing hand, scissors and paper to decide who should talk to them. I lost, so I went. Talk talk, turns out they were really there for Felicia's party. They even figured out that me and Alvin were invited as well.

So, when Jeannie and Yu Ling arrived, we walked to Fe's house lo... The walk there made us guys feel like strangers sia.. Everyone all talking here and there, only me and Alvin walking slowly while listening to songs.

When we reached the house, I saw all the catering and stuff and I was like, " Wah lau.. ". While waiting to surprise the Felicia, me and Alvin went change first. Halfway changing, Jeannie came knocking asking us to get upstairs.. Went upstairs and it was darn full. Imagine a normal bedroom having about 11 girls inside. What do you get??

Girls in pink

So when Felicia came back, SURPRISE!!! She cried man.. So touched.. Haha. But where was the food??? The guys all wanna eat!!!

Guys eating

There was this baby who was a relative of Jeannie.. SO DARN CUTE!! The cheeks were chubby and fat. Feel like pinching it.

Playing with the babyCan you see the cheeks???

After all the eating was done, singing and having fun began. Petrina and the others started singing downstairs, while me, Lian, 'mommy' and 'daddy' were playing ' cho dai di ' upstairs. Finish doing everything d, went downstairs to take pictures again. I even had a tickling match with Lian. I swear, she raped both my nipples just to win.

Lian and Me

Kenny, Jeannie, Yu Ling, Fe, Alvin and Me

Picture outside of Fe's house

Singing finish d, then the cake came. Me, Kelvin and another guy got some spray and got ready to do some dirtying. Haha.. Was fun.

The birthday girl with her cake

After dirtying her Rm2oo++ hair

After that, singing and playing again!!! All the way to bout 1++ a.m. Then a dude called Brian brought out the cupcakes that Jeannie and Yu Ling made at around 1.13 a.m as that was the exact time that Fe was born. So cool..

Everyone enjoying the cupcakes

Then Fe brought down her laptop and everyone started Friendster-ing. Haha.

Busy at the laptop

After that, Lian fell asleep along with everyone else. Jeannie, Yu Ling, and some other dudes all went upstairs to sleep. Pet was lying down on my shoulder for comfort and Kelvin on her, while Fe was on Kelvin's arm.. Lol.. it was like One Tree Hill but our own version. Haha.

One Tree Hill, Malaysia style

Suddenly, around 4-ish, Lian awoke from her sleep and began this conversation.

Lian: Fe.... fe.....
Steven: Oi fe, lian call u
Fe: wat???
Lian: fe... fe....
Fe: wat????
Lian: Got milo anot??
Everybody listening: *speachless*

So, me, pet, kelvin, lian, ee yin, fe went to the kitchen to make milo. Alvin became a pig and asked Pet make milo for him summore...

Milo gang

Then later at 5.30, something stupid happened. Earlier, me and Lian both saw someone walking outside on Felicia's porch. Then at 5.30, I saw again. Behold this conversation

Steven: FE!! I saw someone outside!! GO SEE!!
Fe: Dowan la.... Scared
Steven: *saw Alvin standing* ALVIN, go take a look. I'm not joking man, just take a look!
Alvin: *opens window and looks* OMG! SHIT. FE, someone's stealing your car!! Shit!! FUCK. *runs to door*
*Steven, pet, fe and ee yin stands up*
Steven: *reaches window first and looks* Eh Fe, isn't that your maid???
Fe: *Finally looking* My maid la...
*All look at Alvin who was near the door*
Steven: Alvin, wat you doing??
Alvin: Wanna open the door and scream la!
Steven: LOL
Fe: Steven, follow me go to the back and check.
*Ee yin misses out the last part*
*Steven and Fe came back to the living room after checking the back*
Ee Yin: Eh, Steven.. You go back take knife ah?? Its the maid la..
Steven: Swt.. I went back to check whether its the maid la...
Ee Yin: Oh....

Haha.. Kelvin, Lian and a few more girls slept through the entire ordeal..

After that, Pet went to sleep again, but not before commenting on my shoulder. Haha.. I'll remember that comment for sure.

Attack of the Phones

Me, Alvin, Fe and Ee Yin stayed awake all the way till 8 something where we had breakfast. Some guys went back at 6.30. Then 6.45, they came and rang the doorbell. Then Pet did something funny.

Pet: Chi ma kan those people la.. Ring bell at this time....
Steven: Yeah la..
Pet: *already back to sleep*
Steven: Swt...

After breakfast, Lian and Pet went back then I fell asleep. Fe took a picture lol.

'Early sleepers'

Later, the remaining 5 people went to Felicia's room to camwhore and have fun lol.

Fe, Jeannie, Ee Yin and Piggy!

So nice to lie on someone for a change

Jeannie, Ee Yin and sleeping Me

Aim, Shoot, Catch!

Ee Yin and Me

Ate pizza for lunch again. So nice... After that, another group pic, then we all went home^^

Me, Ee Yin, Alvin and Fe

Fe, Me, Ee Yin and Alvin

P.S Was damn fun the entire party.. Had fun. Happy birthday Fe!!

First timer

2007-11-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

So, this is the first time I'm blogging here on Blogspot. Hope I don't abandon this one like my other one ^^.