How I am

You know.. I've never felt this way.

People I treated as close friends are users. Some were my friends just because I was their friend's bf but after we broke up, they drifted away from me. Others had their own bf or gf to be with. Friends in school have other friends. Maybe it's partially my fault because I am a prefect and I can't hang out with them during recess where everyone is together and having fun and chatting. Maybe I was the one to blame for believing I belonged.

For the first time in my life.

I was lonely.