A Moment of Glory

Pressure is placed on all shoulders,
Promising futures are often sought,
Beauty lies with unsuspecting beholders,
With lessons, that have yet been taught.

Prosperity awaits, those who endeavor,
The highest of highs and lowest of lows,
With inspiration and thoughts so clever,
As you embark on this journey you chose.

The memories of yesterday's corruption,
Haunt the ambition of tomorrow's dreams,
Beware of life's complicated interruption,
For nothing shall ever be what it seems.

Your word is your greatest possession,
As only you have the power to betray,
For some, manipulation becomes profession,
A modest influence is what they'll portray.

Remain faithful to yourself and desires,
Never jeopardize, for a moment of glory,
Hard work and heart is all life requires,
We're all writers of our own life story.

3 weeks...

3 weeks.. was all it took. 3 weeks.. was all it lasted..

3 weeks back, it was pretty horrible.. 3 weeks later.. it is pretty amazing.

Life as it is, just can't seem to be any better.. However, life as it was, has left me drained of everything I held close to my heart. Now, as I see you, I can't help but think.

Thank god it's over.

Loving You

You can be who you want to be,
But I won't be here when you decide.
I've waited so long for you,
But I can wait no more.
I was here but now I'm gone.

You were everything,
but now you're nothing.
No one else showed life to me than you.
What changed?
I never thought my love could change as fast,
But I wasn't prepared to leave you.

Now I've decided no one could wait as long ,
No one can be at your love;
But somehow I will find a way
To live as long as the word LOVE exists.

I know that we're not meant to love each other,
But somehow I loved you.
It's too late to change that,
But it's not too late to leave you.

Written for every person who decided to leave their partner

How I express myself..

Lately, this is the only way where I can properly express myself. I can't do it in typing long essays.. I just hope, that these poems, might allow me to express myself in a way that will make me feel better...

It Was Good While It Lasted

Knowing I will face you
Knowing I will see your smile
Am I really in this dreadful mess?
Am I really able to go on, mile after mile?

Hurt's in my heart
And tears in my eyes
I miss the person you were
The person I met

As I try to be strong
Reality knocks on my door
As my attention's called
Lost in confusion, I am

But as the days go by, I find
I no longer want to be with you
With guidance from people,
I am slowly getting over you.

As I lay down on my bed,
As I just stop for a moment to rest,
The memories of you and me
Just run through me head

Maybe we were not meant to be
But even though it wasn't hard,
To say good-bye,
It was good while it lasted.

Letting You Know

You know that I am here,
Because you talk to me.
You don't know that I like you,
And if you did,
What would you do?

I sometimes feel like telling you,
How I truly feel,
If only you knew that I like you,
Would you give me a chance?

You are everything,
That I have ever asked for,
Beautiful eyes,
Nice, sweet and kind personality.
You are who you are to me,
And that is all that I want you to be.

I want to show you that I love you,
And I will never hurt you,
Because I will never want to lose you.
But I guess that will only remain a silent part of me,
The part that would have enough courage to tell you,
How I really feel.

So I hope this gets through to you,
Because this is the only way,
Just know that i like you,
And I will always be here for you,
Till the end.

I Bet You Never Knew

Fixed and dazed in air
My mind wanders nowhere
I see our 'what could have been'
I begin to wonder where to begin

I don't know what to think
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I saw one girl in my life where now it's two
I've never felt so unprepared

My veins don't know which way to flow
The blood goes this way and that
To fulfill the body, or for the heart to breathe
Leaving both behind where they're at

So I'll stop and stare
Try to live my life
Although I see two
Like a splitting knife

Look In My Eyes

It hurts me so to watch you go
But it tears me apart, when you don't take notice of me,
I'm sorry I can't be like other guys
Tall, handsome, and very funny
For once it wouldn't hurt to look in my eyes
Which burns with faith, care, and sensitivity
I try to be awesome and fun
But compared to my friends I'm always outdone

I know you deserve better and I'm not the very best
But if you would just look in my eyes, you'll see I care about you more than the rest
I try to turn from temptations, my eyes look away
Cause I see you, I'd rather be with you any day

I'm not perfect or best fit
But in my eyes you are
And that's all that matters to me
If you would look in my eyes, you can see me completely
But you only look at them
That's why I seem so unworthy

Your voice is my music
Your eyes are all I stare
So look back into mine
For you I so care

Hoping You Won't See

I can't look you in the eyes I'm afraid that you will see.
The yearning I feel inside for what I know could never be.

I try to fight the feelings and what I long to say.
But every time it gets harder to just let you walk away.

If only you knew the truth hidden beneath the lies.
If only you could hear every time that my heart cries.

How can something that feels so right ever be so wrong.
When will the wanting stop it seems I've wanted you for so long.

God, but you're beautiful and oh how I yearn for just your touch.
Never could there ever be someone who longs for you so much.

But what I feel for you must stay hidden deep within.
For I could never fight for a love I know I cannot win.

So I'll silently keep wishing for what I know could never be.
And yearning for you but yet hoping you won't see.

Love at its best

Love at its best,
Is a wonderful thing.

Love at its best,
Is a beautiful thing,

Love at its best,
Is an amazing thing,

Love at its best..
Is there such a thing? XD


Just a simple joke poem.. Doesn't mean anything..

4 Poems in a row

My Love For You Is Real
Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly actions,
The way that you care,
And show such emotions.

The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.

The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.

The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

My Love

You are my angel,
My reason for it all,
You fill my life with hope,
And for you I stand tall,

I think about you always,
I miss you all the time,
And just to be near you,
There's no mountain I wouldn't climb,

I want to hold you close,
Your hugs are a bliss,
And I really can't wait,
To feel your soft kiss,

Sometimes I am wondering,
Cause I just can't see,
Why a perfect little angel,
Would choose someone like me,

You'll always be perfect,
In every single way,
I'm gonna love waking up to you,
Every single day, you are a blessing,

Sent straight from above,
You're so special to me,
And I wanna show you my love.

More Than You Know

I'd like to tell you
how much I love you,
and I hope you know that I do...
I wish that the words I speak
so gently to you could be
heard by your heart
with the same meanings
and the same soft feelings of love
that they carry from deep within me.

For more than you know ...
I love so many things about you.
More than just the way you hold me
and the warmth you give;
I enjoy sharing life with you.
I enjoy the way we balance each other out,
how we share the good times
and support each other through the tears.
I enjoy the knowledge that we'll make it
through whatever life brings
with courage and with love
through the years.

More than you know ...
and more than I can ever say,
I feel a wonderful thankfulness
in my heart ... just for you.
And I want you to remember, though
my thoughts don't always convey
and my feelings don't always show,
I love you,
and I always will
..more than you know.

I Just Want To Tell You

I just want to tell you,
I love you with all my heart.
I wish for us to be together,
Never shall we be apart.

I just want to tell you,
You put the smile on my face.
I want to be by your side,
I don't want to be any other place.

I just want to tell you,
You mean so much to me.
I see you as nothing less than the world,
And that I want you to see.

I just want to tell you,
I wouldn't be able to live without you.
Without the comfort you give,
There's nothing I could do.

I just want to tell you,
I thank you for being there.
You've always given me a shoulder to lean on,
And you always care.

I just want to tell you,
I think of you every moment of the day.
And how much I love you,
Words could never even say.

I just want to tell you,
I love you with all my heart.
I wish for us to be together,
Never shall we be apart.

Its hard

Today.. I knelt down in front of a girl.. The second time of my life.. I have never done this before.. And this time, it was in a public place..

Why? My mind says I should respect you, my heart says I don't give a shit and I wanna love you..

But one thing is for sure, I miss you like hell now..

Anything For My Angel

Without you by my side my life is spinning
I wish there was a way for me to be right next to you
I feel so lost, in this world of desire
I want to be with you so bad
It feels as if my heart is on fire

I'm constantly stuck in this struggle to survive
Life isn't worth living without you by my side
There are memories of us that I try to hide
But I can't, because they are the only way I get through my life

I mean this with all my heart
If there is a way to get to you, I will
If there is a way for me to see you, I will
If there is a way for us to beat these hard times, we will

The way I know this is simply because I LOVE YOU
And that is enough to get through anything!

My Only Love

To a woman as beautiful as can be,
The only one I want with me.
The sunshine of my brightest day
the one that takes my lonely away.
You are my dream that really came true
without your love,
I don't know what I would do.
You make me feel like I'm a king
and I always want you to be my queen.
I love you more than you'll ever know
and want you to take my love where ever you go.
You'll always be in my heart
and nothing can ever tear us apart.
You are my world, my life it seems
you're in my thoughts and all my dreams.
I'll love you for the rest of your life and cherish every minute
as long as you promise to keep me in it.

Thank you for today B ^^

I Promise You

Darling, I make these promises to you and only you.
To love, Honor and care for you, and always be true.

I promise to love you with all of my heart.
No matter if we are together or far apart.

I promise you, when you are down.
From your face I will take your frown.

I promise to take your side when right or wrong.
Just to prove that my love for you is strong.

I promise when you're worried, I will give you hope.
And when you're confused. . . . I will help you cope.

I promise it is you whom I will tend.
For with you, will I stay until the end.

I promise when you need love, my heart I will share.
And when you are sick, for you I will care.

I promise you that nothing will change my heart.
You will feel my love even when we are apart.

I promise that my love for you will go on forever.
For it is truly to you, that I will surrender.

I promise to give you all that I have to give.
I'll do anything for you, for as long as I live.

I promise when you're sad, I will dry your tears.
I'll help solve all of our problems throughout our years.

Darling, I make these promises to you and only you.
I promise to love, Honor and care for you, and always be true.

Tagged by Shi Ting

1. What have you been doing recently?
Writing many many poems

2. Do you ever turn your hand phone off?
Erm.. Only when I have no battery

3. What happened at 10am today?
I have no idea, I was sleeping

4. When did you last cry?
Last night

5. Believe in Fate/ Destiny?
Yeah. I do

6. What do you want in life now?
Happiness for her

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
Put up my hood

8. What's your favorite thing to do in bed?
Sleeping, chatting and making out XD

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
Shorts

10. What are the nicest thing in your inbox?
Her smses

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
Lol.. I guess?

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
Nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Harry Potter

14. What are you proud of?
Proud of how she handled thursday night

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
Happy Birthday from Shi Ting

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Touch My Hand by David Archuleta

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Steven, Gerald, Fucker!

18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
Good night, sweet dreams by Vicky Chai

19. What time did you sleep last night?
Roughly about 6.45 a.m this morning actually..

20. Are you currently happy?
Haha.. Quite happy actually

21. Who give you the best advise?
Her, my family and yee teng

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Nope

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Shi Ting

24. Is something bugging you right now?
Nope

25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
Shi Ting

26. Do you like yourself?
Haha.. maybe?

27. You want $5 or $10?
Neither

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
Yeap

29. Who is your best best best best best friend?
Hmm.. I don't wanna state names

30. What will you do if you like that girl?
Which girl? Not Shi Ting, no like

31. Who are your favorite stars?
The brightest ones

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
Yeah

33. Do you had even stead before?
What on earth is this?

34. What type of girl do you like?
No idea...

35. Now are you single/attached?
Single XD

Pass this tag to 8 people:

[1] Shi Ting
[2] Evonne
[3] Sheena Liam
[4] Michelle Lim
[5] Gloria
[6] Kevin
[7] Eu gene
[8] Zhenyu
[9] Han yi
[10] Casey

1. Would you date number 5?
Nah.. Never

2. Number 2 just got a car crash and how do you react?
Laugh, ask how she is, laugh again.. then go check on how she is

3. You see no.9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
Hmm.. nothing?

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
I'll probably wonder how she got in..

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
Kinda normal for her ^^

6. Number 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
Good luck

7. Number 7 just got a ticket for him/her and you to go to a concert.
Yeah sure, why not..

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
Drink man! drink!

9. No. 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
Aww.. write me cards lol

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
Probably got arrested for having a good time

11. Number 7 and you sitting on the couch watching a movie when her/him wrap his/her arm around you.
Gay bastard

12. Number 5 ask you out for dinner.
Well.. that's good.. she owes me anyway

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on the bus.
Chat.. chat... chat...

14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of night because she/he can't sleep.
Chat till either one falls asleep

15. You're walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
Good luck with that lol..

16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
Comfort her, make her feel better..

17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen suddenly aflame.
Say I knew it and bring out the fire extinguisher

18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
Not bad.. welcome back from Australia.

19. Number 4 just got u an x-box.
Thanks?

20. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
hahaha... She will never think so

21. Number 7 looks lonely.
I will accompany him lol..

22.Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave him/her alone.
Too bad for her then ^^

23. Number 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
Be very grateful ^^

24. Number 6 decide to dye her/his hair black. What do you say about that?
Won't make a difference really..

25. Number 7 tells you he/she is going to go out for a while, and then later you hear about a shooting where he/she went.
Go find out what happened.

26. Number 1, 3, 5 and 6 all tackle at you once. Is it possible?
Yeah.. sure.. why not? ^^

The Way You Make Me Feel

I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me feel
My life has been worth while

I love the way you hold me tight
I love the way you smell
I love the way you make me feel
What words just can not tell

I love the way you hold my hand
I love the way you touch
I love the way you make me feel
That I am worth so much

I love the way you walk with me
I love the way you speak
I love the way you make me feel
As my knees grow weak

I love the way you hug me close
I love the way you kiss
I love the way you make me feel
This love I will always miss

I love you because its my decision

If Only Love Could Speak

Only if love could speak

Would it utter a special wish of joy
Only if love could speak
Would it admire the rare essence of you
If only it could guarantee
As much as the value of your soul
Only if love could speak
Would it caress your beauty from within
Only if love could speak
I would say life is full of little treasures
And you are one of them
Only if love could speak
Would it say that I'm completely in love with you

If I was

If I was God . . .
I'll take you to my paradise
If I was a flower . . .
I'd bloom for you at every sunrise
If I was the moon . . .
I'd glow your path and make it bright
If I was water . . .
I'd quench your thirst and bathe you right
If I was the sun . . .
I'd keep you warm and make you shine
If I was a poet . . .
I'd write you lines that makes you rhyme
If I was teddy . . .
I'd bear your nights and hold you tight
If I was a demon . . .
I'd take your soul and make you my angel
If I was a king . . .
I'd give you my kingdom and make you my queen.
But . . . Since I am me, and only me, I can only give
you my loving heart, admire you at all times and hope you were mine.

Thank you for today..

It's going to be OK

Dedicated to B,

It's all going to be OK. Get some rest. If you are in need of someone, I'm always ready for you. I love you.

I'm good..

When friends and family come around and ask me
All I say is
I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright

Deep in side I know I can't take any more
It's killing me slowly
Physically mentally
There's nothing left in me.

But I don't want people to feel sorry for me
That's why I say
I'm good I'm good

Some times I can't even talk
I can't walk
See the end of the road
Somebody help me
Oh say somebody help me
ooohhh

I don't want people to feel sorry for me
That's why I say
I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright

My friends and family that's all I tells them but
Deep inside I'm dying baby
Oh...no...no...no

I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright
Said I'm good I'm good
I'ma be alright..

Love of My Life - Foo Shi Ting

Like the stars in the sky,
I am calling to you.

From the heavens above,
I am looking for you.

In the depths of my soul,
I will live and breathe for you.

Sadness dwells inside you;
You have nothing to fear,

for I am next to you.
I can feel your sadness;

Let me be sad for you,
so you will feel love once again.

Worry not about life,
let me worry for you.

You should always love life,
for it is a part of you.

I'll be there when you fall,
to catch you and say I Love You...

You're the Only One

There are times I can't recognize who I am
There are moments I am without a feeling
There are spaces that happiness can't fulfill
There are clouds not even sunshine can take away.

And though darkness gathers,
And though the silence just gets quieter,
The very thought of you,
And everything you do
Just makes me calm down, and leave that wretched place.

You're the peace inside my soul,
You're spirit of my heart,
You're love that I hold.

You're the magic all around me,
You're my bright and shining star.
You're the greatest friend of all,
And you're the only one.

If only you believed,
And saw me there in front of you.
If you let your heart love again,
You'll find peace as you wanted to.

And when all hope seems dull,
I will always pick you up.
If there's no way out,
You know I'll never give up.

And though darkness gathers,
The very thought of you,
And everything you do
Just makes me feel alright.
'Cause you're the only one.

You're the only one.

Why do I love you?

I love you,
because of who you are,
and not what you are.

I do crazy things, weird things, normal things,
because I love you,
because of who you are.

You make me want to be the best,
Without a word, because I love you,
because of who you are.

In my heart,
You are number one,
The special one,
Because I love you,
For who you are.

I love it,
When we laugh,
When we call each other names,
It makes me happy,
Thus, I love you even more,
Because of who you are.

Love is a gamble,
Love is a risk,
Love is a miracle,
Love does exist.

So why do I love you?
That's easy,
The answer is,
Because you are Shi Ting.

My Life

My Life
Some days seem like a struggle to get through
Some are a breeze
I question my purpose and reason
But no answer has yet come
I know there's a purpose for me bigger
Than life itself
But where do I begin to get these
Questions answered

I was put here to do great things and
To make a difference in other's life
Some days I feel helpless and lost
Unimportant and useless
Other days I feel like I make all the difference
Needed and wanted
There's never a balance, just a high and a low

But when I hear about others who are helpless and lost
Those who haven't even made it to smell a breath of fresh air
I feel selfish for even having such thoughts
Then I realize that my purpose is just that
To live, love, and enjoy life to the fullest.

I found this in a website. I find it something worth sharing with everyone out there..

The Only One

My kind of music,
My favorite song,
I want to be with you
All day and all night long...

Through nine people,
I wondered who would be my sun,
Ever since I knew you
You were the only one...

All the love in the world,
All the love that we see,
Once added up,
It is equal to what I feel inside of me.

My best friend,
My only lover,
From 30th April onwards,
In my heart, I'll keep you forever...

To share a good smile,
Or some unhappy tears,
You're the one I go to
Through all the coming years...

When it rains it rains,
When it snows it snows,
I wrote this only for you
And you're the only one who knows...

I keep you warm,
When nature is cold,
You are my heart's owner, because
To you it was sold...

Whether playing our favorite games,
Or to music we sing & listen,
When it comes to you
There's just no competition...

Not the best cut diamonds,
Or the reddest rose,
Could ever amount to
When you hold me close...

And when everything is said and done,
The night is over and we've had our fun,
Out of all the girls, I choose just one,
The best one of all, and that's you, B.
The only one.

My love for you

Strong is, my love for you,

A love so pure, so real, so true,

A love so deep, Its hard believing,
To be with you, is what I'm dreaming,

My love for you, is the real thing,
I wrote this song, for you to sing,

My love for you is a sunrise,
Born new each day, but never dies,

My love for you, its has no question,
To cherish each moment, that is the lesson,

My love for you, I know is right,
I dream about you, every night,

First thought I have, and last at night,
I will love you til the end of time

A little poem

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry

Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.

I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad
When you tell me of the day you had

I love you truly
I love you deeply

Ever since the day
I let you meet me

I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever

Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance

I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and your warm kiss

I love you

Change...

Today I saw a change in my behavior

Something was different about me

I engaged myself thinking about things

Things that no normal 18 year old should be thinking about

A sign of maturity caught my eye as i began to pursue what was the most important thing to me, my family

Family has always been the ones to comfort you when your sailing low in your cloudy thoughts

And find a way to bring you to sanity

Your family are the people in your life that you look to for advice and support

Today, something out of the ordinary embraced my daily life

And I was shot down with a dark bolt of lighting that got me to realize

What meant the most to me and how to pursue it

The little things in life mean the most to people

And you dont realize how much you care about that special one until the day they don't exist anymore

The day they are revoked from the world

These small things are just so sentimental to the heart that sometimes

Its the only thing that keeps your heart ticking

Finding the right way to approach your flaws is key

The hardest part of growing up is finding a way to break free

Finding a way of letting go what your used to

And moving on with something your not

Change in your life isnt always easy to pursue

Turning your back on things that your used to

Or even things that you found thrilling can turn to a wild depression state of mind

Change in your life isn't always easy to soak in

Knowing when the time is right

Knowing when the heart is ready

Knowing when the brain is stable

All key factors in changing you see

There is a time and a place for everything in this world

There is a moment in life of willingness to proceed in life

To be the best you can be

Change in your life isn't always easy to pursue

The answers in life you wish to seek

Are only a footstep away, a footstep closer to happiness

The true meaning of change isn't to leave behind your worries like nothing happened

The true meaning of change is the willingness in your heart to be the best you can be

The true meaning of change is you.

I woke up, thinking...

符诗婷，我真的爱你。。
现在我很想念你。。
昨天， 我真的很开心。。
谢谢你。。
对我而言，你真的很棒。。
我觉得， 你是我的心跳，如果没有你，我不是人。。
因为，我的心不在我的身体里面了。。

现在，我真的很想念你。。

Thank you.

符诗婷，谢谢你。。我爱你。。 现在，我真的很想念你。。给我，这个感觉。。 是一个很强烈的感觉。。 我不知道要怎样说。。但是，我知道一个东西。。

我真的想念你，
还有。。
我真的很爱你。。
谢谢你。。

Foo Shi Ting, you are the special one for me

符 诗 婷 ，你 对 我 来 说 很 特 别 。

Don't apologize

Not to me. I love you, that's why I want to do this. There's no other reasons why. I know you love freedom, I know you are crazy.. But I still accept it. There's really no other reasons why I'm doing what I am doing.

I love you, my love.

我爱你，符诗婷。 因为，是我愿意。。
因为，心跳解释到没有了你不能跳，
我爱你，直到我人生的尽头。

我愿意

Love is amazing,
Love is a miracle,
Love is sweet,
Love is beautiful.

Love is how I love you,
Love is how I feel,
Love is what I need,
Love is what I give.

Love is a feeling between two people,
Love is a mutual respect,
Love is the total honesty,
Love is a harmonious bond.

Love is how you care,
Love is how you give,
Love is how we are as a couple,
Love is what defines us.

Love is why I'm willing,
Love is why I'm changing,
Love is why I'm crying,
Love is why I'm dying.

Love is why you are worth it all,
The sweat,
The tears,
The pain.

Don't you see? I love you
Accept the fact that I am willing to accept you as who you are.
I know, that taking this road will bring many pain and unhappiness. But I don't care. I'll use a million years to show to you that this is the road I want to take. I may cry, I may be hurt, I may even kill myself in the end. But it all comes down to this, I am willing to go down this road.

I am a weird and horrible person. I may do many things that causes trouble or conflict. But I do know what love is. And I definitely know that,
I love you

谁说的？你值不值得是由我来决定的，不是吗？

谁说的？你值不值得是由我来决定的，不是吗？

A love so true,
A love so pure,
With that within us,
How can you not be worth it?

You are my life,
My happiness,
My love,
How can you not be worth it?

You give me a reason,
To live everyday,
To be thankful everyday,
How can you not be worth it?

I am always in the shadows,
Observing you,
Even though I am hurt,
Just one smile from you,
Makes life more beautiful,
How can you not be worth it?

I make mistakes,
I make errors,
For you, I'm willing to change the whole world,
How can you not be worth it?

Touch after touch,
Hug after hug,
Kiss after kiss,
You leave me wanting more and more,
How can you not be worth it?

Tears after tears,
Sweat after sweat,
I shed all that for you because I want to,
How can you not be worth it?

Our story is complicated,
I am complicated,
You are complicated,
Even with all the complications,
How can you not be worth it?

Craziness,
Is a part of you, and always will be,
Even though it hurts me deeply,
When I see your happy face,
How can you not be worth it?

I've written more poems for you,
Bought more presents for you,
Worked so hard for you,
Than anyone I have ever met,
How can you not be worth it?

With a heart so beautiful,
With a heart so caring,
Yet with a heart so mysterious,
How can you not be worth it?

Every part of you now,
I miss it,
I love it,
Now tell me again,
How can you not be worth it?

This is not a complain,
It is my way of expressing how I feel right now,
As I type these words out,
I am thinking,
How can you not be worth it?

I want us to be together again,
Stronger,
More open to one another,
Without a care for the future,
Just the present.

符诗婷,我爱你

我不要, 因为我知道, 没有可能

我不要, 因为我知道, 没有可能


Life goes on,
My love goes on,
My mistakes stay.

Having to admit,
Is always a hard thing,
To do.

To do so,
One must have forget,
His pride.

A man's pride,
Is his most,
Treasured possesion.

However,
By forgetting it,
He is sacrificing.

For a happiness,
That will last a lifetime,
What is a small sacrifice like this?

I admit,
to you now,
in the only way left for communicating.

I plan,
I acted,
I hide.

I am wrong,
And I beg,
For forgiveness.

For I,
Have been humbled,
Brought down to my knees.

By a love
That is so strong,
That is so pure.

You really understand me

In this lonely night,
Before the clock strike 12,
I am thinking of you,
Over and over again,
I'm wondering that,
If you were beside me,
I guarantee..
You'll make me happy with your smile,
You'll make me warm with your hug,
You'll make me blissful with your kiss,
You'll make me strong with your words,
And lastly,
Lonely is a word that I do not know,
When I'm around you,
Because now,
I really miss you, my love
I really love you, my sweetheart
Because you understand whatever I want
Because you understand whatever I need
Because you are the one for me,
There is really no one else,
Who understands me like you,
Shi Ting,
I love You.

You are not alone

Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

This song is by the late Michael Jackson. And I am dedicating this to you. Although we're not far away, I want you to know that you are always in my heart.
我爱你，直到我人生的尽头

Is tomorrow going to be the same?

Is it just like previous years? Or will it finally be meaningful to me? I don't know but I pray to God that you are there for me. That's the best gift that I can ever wish for.

Tagged by Shi Ting

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Steven
2. Jia Liang
3. Gerald
4. Steven Fok

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. Her birthday
2. My birthday
3. Anniversaries
4. Other peoeple's birthday

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. Texted her
2. Changed
3. Chatted on MSN
4. Missed her

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Exercise
2. Laugh
3. Dance
4. Kiss :)

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. My grandparents
2. Her
3. My best friend
4. My other best friend

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A surprise
2. Birthday bash
3. Her presence :)
4. Something that means a lot to me

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
1. Exercising
2. Dancing
3. Taking care of her
4. Sms-ing

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. Hawaii
2. Paris
3. Venice
4. Ipoh

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Iced lemon tea
2. Iced Milo
3. Alchohol
4. Teh Tarik

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
Err.. I don't usually carry around a bag

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Red
2. Black
3. White
4. Blue

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. Sunway Pyramid
2. Taylor PJ campus
3. SS 15
4. Her House

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Shi Ting
2. My family
3. My friends
4. Whoever loves me out there.

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. Her of course.
2. My time spent with her
3. My dancing
4. My family

TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
No one?

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. becuz Shi Ting tagged me
2. I wanted her to see my anwers
3. I am bored
4. I am waiting for some pictures to download finish

THE PEOPLE WHO I GOING TO TAG:
No one. Lucky guys

Who else but me?

When it is rough and harsh,
stop for a moment,
and think,
who is supporting you all the time?
I am.

When you are sad,
Or happy,
Or angry,
stop and think,
who will be feeling those same feelings together with you?
I am.

When you feeling like hitting something,
Or killing someone,
Stop!
And think,
Who will be willing to let you kill or hurt him?
I am.

When you are having troubles,
Or you cannot make a decision,
Stop and think,
Who will be the one who is willing to listen to you?
To guide you?
I am.

And when you are feeling down,
Or you just have trouble smiling,
Stop and think,
Who will be ready to make you smile and make your day better?
I am.

After saying all this,
Verse after verse,
Line after line
words after words,
Stop and think,
Who is thinking about you right now?
Who loves you so much?
Who is the person who won't let you get into any danger?




I am.

I love you

In a moment of darkness,
Your light came shining through,
For a moment, it made me senseless,
Then it all became true.

Your love powered me,
Energized me,
Driven me,
Inspired me,
And with that, a little poem for you :-

There's only 1 way for me,
2 say,
Those 3 words,
4 you.
I love you.

4 everything you did for me,
there is only 3 words that can be said,
2 you,
in only 1 way,
I love you.

There's no 1 else,
2 care for you,
and mean those 3 words like I do,
again, 4 the world to see and read,
I love you.

4 as long as my heart beats,
these 3 words will continue living,
2 you, I will always care,
Not in 1 way, but every way possible,
I love you.

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I dedicate this song to Foo Shi Ting. The girl I am waiting for. The girl I care and love.

I love you

A new day with yesterday's purposes

Talking to you.. That's one of the hardest yet easiest things I can do right now. Hardest because I can feel the hurt. Easiest because I love talking to you. No, I am not complaining nor am I commenting. I'm just thankful that we could still talk things over.

Something we talked about made me think now. Am I really possesive? If you asked me, I honestly would not know. I'm not saying that I am not. I am saying that I don't know. Because, compared with my previous relationships, I have let you off a lot more than the others. It is probably because of that, is why I do not feel I am possesive or otherwise. My heart tells me that I am not, but my mind wonders, do the people around me feel so? Well... that has been answered for me a few days ago. Yes, I am portraying myself as a possesive person. I shoot glances of anger and jealousy whenever you talk to someone else that I think of as someone who could take you away from me. I am saying this according to what I've been told, but honestly, I had no conscious idea regarding this. Because in my own mind, I would try to engage myself in a conversation but I would constantly glance at you to check on you. Like you said, it could be according to the Johari's Window, that this is the blind part of my personality. Maybe it is. But now it is in the open. I know it now and I am perfectly willing to make a conscious effort to keep this intact. It'll take time surely, but I will do everything in my willpower to continuously control that part of me.

You said that I am hiding my feelings from you, like I smile at you if you look at me. I don't know what to say other than that I am sorry you felt that. Because everytime you ask if I was ok, I would ask myself the same in my heart, and my heart will say yes most of the time. It is arguable that deep down, I did feel something. But when my heart said yes, then it comes right out of my mouth. If I had thought longer or took a longer time to ask myself again, the answer might or might not be different.

Thank you for telling me all this, Ting. I really appreciate it. I will continue proving myself. I will wait for you to accept me again. I will use our conversation earlier to further change myself. As a better friend. And hopefully, as a better boyfriend to you.

I love you

Grasping and running towards the tunnel of hope

Thanks for coming out with me last night. It really meant a lot to me. I'm happy that we managed to talk and speak our minds. Maybe its a new start? Maybe its a new ending? I do not know.. but as long as there is hope of getting back with you, that's the hope that I will be holding on to. Seeing you smile, seeing you laugh.. it reminded me so much about what used to be and what could have been. However, I did not appreciate it last time.. but this time its different. I'm a new man. I've learned from my mistakes. Maybe you need evidence about it, maybe you want to hear from other people's mouths. Which ever it is, I will not make the same mistake again. I will put my whole body and soul into making sure of that.

I swear, upon my family's name, to Foo Shi Ting and to everyone else, that I, Steven Fok Jia Liang, will put my entire body and soul into making sure that a lie never escapes my mouth ever again. No more untruths, no more half truths. From now on, it is all just the truth. And along with that, I would like to swear that I am truly sorry and I am really doing my best to repent and redeem myself. As a boyfriend, as a best friend, as a friend.

Give me a chance to prove myself

I know it is a hard time for you. It's hard for me too. I hurt the person I love the most, whom loved me back more than anyone ever did. And not only that, I hurt you in the most hurtful way possible to you. I just want you to know that I lied for a reason. I'm not saying that because of that reason, therefore I am right. I know I am wrong for lying to you. I know you could've accepted any wrongdoings of mine other than that. But I still did it. I am sorry. There is nothing but guilt and repentance in my heart right now.

I would also like to say that, even if I lied about certain stuff, I did not lie about how I felt for you. I did not lie when I said I am willing to be the one you rely on. I did not lie when I said it's ok to send back home, or to accompany you back by train. I did not lie when I said you were the one for me. And lastly, I did not lie when I said that I love you in my room, which was the first time I said those 3 words to you and I did not lie when I said I love you ever since that day.

Please give me a chance to prove myself to you as a boyfriend worthy enough of you. I am really sorry for what I did and I'm going to set things straight between me and everyone that was involved. Please reconsider me.

I love you

Thanks to my course mates that were there today.

To the people who were willing to listen to me, thanks. I apologize for my previous post about you guys. I realize now that I'm the one who is to be blamed. I've been tactless and I've been lying. I'm glad that you guys gave me the chance to come clean. And just as a side note, I'm posting it online so that everyone who had read it before, can now read the actual truth. No other intentions. It might not be much, but its the least I could do. Thank you again.

I'm working on it... I really am

I can't put into words the feelings I have right now. The closest I can get to it is that I feel absolute regret to what I have did. I know I have to give you time and space. I respect that. But I would not stop trying. There's something special between us and I was an idiot to have lost sight of that the first time. Please give me a chance to appreciate it this time. That's all I ask.

I am sorry.

I lied to you when I shouldn't have to. No, I lied to you when I didn't have to. I realize that is was a stupid thing to do. But trust me when I say this now and I want the whole world to know this.

I am truly in love with you, Foo Shi Ting. I didn't want any of this to happen. Please accept my apology and please allow me a chance to make things right again. You might feel that it can't be helped, that it can't be saved. Half of our coursemates might even feel that. But what we had was special. I'm sure you felt it too. And there's no way I could fake that. I just wish right now, that I am the person who accompanies you all the way back to tasik selatan just because you're tired, that I am the person who drives you back to your house whenever I have the car, because that's the person I am. I care about you. I love you. I really would not make the same mistake again.. Ever.

Futile

The word speaks for itself. The futility of me trying is just too obvious now. Why I bothered in the first place, I have no idea... But it is all obvious now. So be it. Jus thought it might be different now.

Recent Happenings

So yeah, to those in college, especially Keith, Ling, John and MS, u guys probably know the things I've been through =P

Just wanted to say thanks to those who helped me see the light and to MS, sorry for sending the wrong signals. We're still cool ^_^

Like what Keith said, won't go into details but all I can say is I'm heading to college tomorrow with a hell lot lighter attidude XD

Intuition

When you begin to listen
And hang on every word,
You get an intuition.
Your mind is now your lord.

You hear this voice, inside you,
The voice you've heard before.
This voice has been there for you.
This voice has opened doors.

As just a little girl,
You found a special friend,
This voice told you "Just do it!
Your joy will never end!"

Remember all those times
This voice was in your mind.
It will be there forever,
Until the end of time.

In only a few seconds,
If you should hear this voice,
You can really trust it,
Let it make your choice.

This voice now whispers to you
The thoughts that come between
Your thoughts, inside your heart,
The wishes deep within.

The wishes you're denying,
The ones you're longing for.
This voice tells you, "Just do it.
Step through that open door.

Leave all your cares behind you,
Your future now unfolds.
You're free from inhibition.
Free from society's holds.

Take in what is before you,
Embrace it in your soul.
Allow it deep inside you,
And let it fill that hole."

This voice knows what you're thinking.
This voice is very wise.
Just trust your intuition,
And follow its advice.

To please those who asked for an update

I shall now show pictures bout my driving lessons lol.. Haven't got my P yet, but I'll get it soon. Look out roadie!! Here comes Steven =P

Gloria, Michelle Yoong, Eu Gene and Shao Kay

Me, Gloria, Michelle Yoong and Eu Gene

Michelle Yoong and Gloria

Eu Gene, Me, Michelle Yoong and Hui Sian

Me and Michelle

Michelle and Gloria